That my friends is a huge question, and I'm not talking about hygiene. I have been going back and forth about this situation in my head since we started the adoption process. Searching the depths of the internet, I looked high and low and finally came to a decision. It is completely up to me.
I know for a fact that God has a baby in mind for us, and who knows I could eat my words later on down the road. Not that it wouldn't be a new concept for me. Here is what I know. When we do get that glorious call to rush to the hospital, I want to be ready. It could be that we are picked and have time to wait, but I don't want to take a chance of getting that call and not being prepared. It just simply won't work for me and isn't in my personality.
There have been several people mention about not being chosen or coming up babyless for lack of a better word. This was another endless conversation in my head too and one that I try hard not to think about. When we signed on with Angel I felt a calm like I've never felt in all the years we spent trying to conceive. Everything also went through so perfectly that I know without a shadow of a doubt that God opened this door for a reason. My friends I do not believe in coincidence.
So, my best friend in the entire world is throwing me a shower next month. Will it be different? You bet it will not because she won't throw an amazing shower, but because there is no baby nor a hint of a bump. However, I cannot think of any other time in my marriage where things have been normal or according to plan, so why start now? Until next time, always Chasing Hope.
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